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You don't understand.
You never will.
You think you can help.
I'm past help.
You think this will last forever?
"Forever" doesn't exist.
I would give my life for the one I love.
So why did the one I love[d]
walk
away?
I want to have and to hold
But that was too long term
I wish I could take this life of mine
But I'm too much a coward to prove my wish.
People say they care.
No one even knows my name.
People say they'd be sad.
I'm just another face in the crowd.
People think this is just for attention.
Well it's because I'm Godfucking miserable!
Fall and scrape your knee?
Cry your eyes out.
Get a bad grade?
Let the tears flow.
Take the punches as fists and words fly?
A fierce face behind saltwater.
But beg for death?
In the deep of night?
Pray to God?
Slit your wrists?
Anything to make the pain go away....
Yet crying is impossible.
You think you can help me?
I am beyond help.
Far beyond.
You never will.
You think you can help.
I'm past help.
You think this will last forever?
"Forever" doesn't exist.
I would give my life for the one I love.
So why did the one I love[d]
walk
away?
I want to have and to hold
But that was too long term
I wish I could take this life of mine
But I'm too much a coward to prove my wish.
People say they care.
No one even knows my name.
People say they'd be sad.
I'm just another face in the crowd.
People think this is just for attention.
Well it's because I'm Godfucking miserable!
Fall and scrape your knee?
Cry your eyes out.
Get a bad grade?
Let the tears flow.
Take the punches as fists and words fly?
A fierce face behind saltwater.
But beg for death?
In the deep of night?
Pray to God?
Slit your wrists?
Anything to make the pain go away....
Yet crying is impossible.
You think you can help me?
I am beyond help.
Far beyond.
Literature
Self Hate
Cuts along my ribs
Because I hate mirrors.
Blood down my side
Because I'm fat
I can't eat
If I do then,
I'm a failure.
If I do then,
I feel sick.
I've thought my body
Into rejecting food
I want to be skinny
Life is handing me reasons
Dressed nice on a silver platter
No money for food at my house
New meds that take my hunger away
I can stop eating again
Without being noticed
Last time I dropped 35lbs in 2 weeks
I'm going for more this time
I hate myself
Want to hurt all the time
I want to punish myself for breathing
Self confidence is fake
It's been undermined by doubt
I'll over-exercise
Till I can't breathe
Dig a bl
Literature
Thanks To You
I love your presence.
And now…
I want you.
Not your body.
But your arms around me.
I need you.
Not for a release.
But for comfort.
I crave you in bed.
Not for love making.
But so I can sleep soundly.
I want your lips.
Not against mine.
But to whisper encouragement
Say my name.
Not from pleasure.
But from the heart.
I love your hands on my back
Not for the sensation
But because of the wings you give me.
You make me want and crave
Being around you simply fills me
These emotions are all because of you.
Because of you…
I want to keep trying.
All because you exist.
Literature
H.E.L.P M.E.
How do you
Even think your
Lies could
Possibly keep
Me from stopping my
Existence?
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Your pain bled into your words. The sorrow and despair is quite evident in your poem. I sincerely hope that things get better for you, that you can find strength within yourself -- your words and your heart.